Viva La Vida Loca!

I know that actually I'm the winner
But the emptyness still freezes my heart.
Who is the angel, who is the sinner?
This question tears my heart apart.

Look in the mirror and see the blush.
Try to calm down this emotional rush.
And thoughts, that I shouldn't think,
I want to drown with a fucking drink.

You feel like the creation's crowning glory
But I don't feel like you!
Where has gone all the shine and glory,
Which I was promised years ago?

I want to move on and I try to smile
But I must admit, that I'm just tired
I scorn myself for not giving the best
I laugh at myself, I crave for a rest

Sweet memories keep fading in my head,
While I try to get out of my bed,
Sun is burning in my room.
It feels like my personal day of doom.

Please, forgive my fucked up behavior!
But I didn't say, that I'm the savior!
Some things I still have to learn
To deal with my serious concern.